I've been so freakin' busy of late, so much so that I keep procrastinating on updating this site, even though I constantly remind myself to do it. It's hard sometimes, even when you technically have the time to do it. When I have a moment, I'd either 1. sleep 2. fall asleep 3. watch dvd till i fall asleep. In short, I just pass out. People would ask me if it's work, or dance, or whatever that's been keeping me busy and exhausted. I say it's all of the above. Even this week, when I'm freed from dance practices, considering Andrew's out of town, I still feel equally busy - with gym (first time back again after a 2 weeks' absence), making dance costume, liaising with overseas suppliers on my stuff etc etc, and the attempt to practice on my own so I won't get too rusty when Andrew's back next Monday. It's unbelievable. Sometimes I wonder if it's healthy to keep myself so tied up like this. I don't make much time for other people really - I can barely finish my own things! Geez.
Someone used to tell me that I don't give myself the time to think about things in restrospect. I prefer to think of it as my way to live my life to the fullest. Yes, I agree that we need to think about our lives sometimes, and where we're going etc etc. But I've come to realise that the more you think and plan, sometimes you get even more confused and conflicted, not really knowing what you want to do for yourself in this life. So just let it be. Do whatever you want and you like as and when you like it, while you still have a chance. Life is short, so why bother wasting it planning for things that you can't anticipate?
So busy mouse would rather keep busy by doing what she loves to do.
