back in the groove

after the lesson on thursday i told myself that i had to start dancing seriously again. it's not just a form of exercise or an activity i do. it's my passion, something that is a large of who i am. as a friend once said, "your eyes light up when you talk about dancing." so i went back to the studio who might very well be my second home (during the times when i was drifting and have yet to rediscover my workaholic self). and everyone seems to be pretty excited to see me. and by everyone i refer to those dancing juniors with whom i am relatively close. and they were pretty eager to get my opinion on their dancing. of course i would NEVER under any circumstances volunteer my opinions or suggestions due to political reasons. don't wanna step on any toes you know. but since they asked, i would render them my true opinions, and i EMPHASISE - just my opinions. don't want to be quoted for teaching them anything.

anyway, the point was - I REALLY REALLY miss dancing. and most of all, COMPETING. i'm not a mere social dancer, and i don't really want to be. unless i am too old to do all my spins and twists and turns...then i'll consider being just a social dancer. but even then, i might very well consider taking part in senior latin comps. hey who knows right?

and seeing them working so hard in preparation for the competition next week really brings back memories on my own training. the pain, the tiredness, the pukey feeling you get after rounds and rounds of mock comp...the excitement on getting a new costume, the make up and tanning and all the preparation on the very day of the competition - ah! who needs aphrodisiac?

so i did my rumba walks, my spins, my spirals, my turns and my checks. and i feel i've improved, despite having stopped dancing for a while now. i feel way more grounded, more stable. and definitely more mature. i am more comfortable with who i am as a dancer, and what i want to project. i am okay with relaxing my upper body while concentrating on my footwork. i am not too worried about how people might view me and my dancing. i simply feel fabulous. a little bit of egotism might make an awesome dancer eh.

now where would i get a dance partner??? haunting question. when oh when can i compete again?