Life is a rollercoaster. Cliche but true. Sometimes you're up and sometimes you're down; sometimes you may be overwhelmed with ecstasy while other times you're drowned in sorrow. I guess only a poet or a dramatist would describe his or her life as such. For most people, life is just okay. There's no real extreme emotion. Everything is average. An average job, average friends, average activities, average boyfriend...But not me. I like to face up to my feelings; simply refusing to face everyday with a resigned attitude. I don't want to just be okay.
For a time I was really unhappy with my life. Dissatisfied. Felt like I had so much, yet so little. So blessed yet so cursed. Really contradicting. But lately I've been really happy. It feels like my life has finally reached a point where I feel almost completely satisfied. Of course there are more to achieve and more to look forward to. But for most times, I can actually honestly say that I'm happy. And my answer to a "how are you" greeting would be "great!" or "i'm doing real fine".
I'm getting everything I want - freedom, enough spending money, weekly golf, supportive friends and family, and most importantly regular dancing and a future in competitive dancing to look forward to. The last one makes all the difference. No matter how dreary work may be, no matter how fucked up the rest of my day is, as long as I can look forward to dancing, I'll be happy. Isn't it scary yet wonderful how important dancing is to me?
With dancing in my life, I am alright with my lacklustre dating life (or the lack thereof). What'll come will come. Who'll come will come. There's no need to seek nor to think too much. With such an attitude, I feel much happier.
And life is most definitely not just okay. It's great. It's wonderful. I'm happy. =)
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