a break from dancing

I am recovering from one of the most devastating dance competition experiences ever. It's not so much how badly we placed in the competition but to whom we lost. I've seen the girls of the couples who placed above us dance. They sucked. Bad. So it's really a big blow to me. I was a bad sport though, which is something I suppose I regretted. I didn't even bow when we went up to collect our certificates. And I definitely did not smile. Not happy at all. And what made it worse was how he took it. He seemed all nonchalant about our poor performance! This pissed me off badly. The least he could do was to be upset that we did badly, not to say things like, oh I don't really care how we did, I just want to dance. Seriously! I could have smacked him really hard. So I just walked away and sat with himself who had waited 5 whole hours just to watch me dance for that 6 minutes. Sigh. I looked through our pictures and videos and of course spotted the possible reasons for our poor result, and yes, it's true, we screwed up at more than a couple of spots. But his energy man, where's his energy?! I am starting to doubt if we are going to have much potential as a competitive couple at all...So I declared that I needed to take a break, a serious break. It's too much dancing for me right now. I think I would rather sit back and re-evaluate what I need and what I want and to see if this is going to work out in the end. So I'm on a break. It's a good time to look at my dancing and see if I've got it to go on, and if this failure is coincidental or a sign of (bad) things to come.