misunderstood

Why won't they understand? I like quiet, I like solitude. As much as I enjoy the occasionally partying with friends. Despite the ease through which I move through the crowd, socialising without effort, I truly do not enjoy crowds and noise. All I want is the right company. Why the fuck do they see the need to automatically classify me under the category of "outgoing party girl"? Why? Why can't they see the two sides in me? Why can't they see and honour the serious side? Why do they automatically think I have problems when they see me quiet and melancholy? Why do they think I've changed? Don't they know it's just a part of me? Don't they know that everytime I say I'm busy it's because I'm busy with myself, spending time alone just doing my own things? Can't they respect that? Do they really think I have THAT many friends? Do I want THAT many friends? Does hanging out doing nothing in particular with random people guarantee me the kind of happiness I'm looking for? Who the fuck are they to think they know who I am? It doesn't take long for me to decide who I'd want to spend more time with and who I just can't be bothered to give my time to. They think they know it all, saying that I need to constantly be with people to avoid feeling lonely. Yea right. Maybe that's you. But no, my friend. All these strangers. I don't need them. Like I said, there's no need to compromise. Rather than spending time with the wrong crowd, I'd rather be alone. Fucking just leave me alone.